My WanderLust Boat

Change happens in the most unwanted ways.

2011-08-30T20:52:00.000-07:00

Somethings you never enjoyed and now you enjoy ! Somethings you enjoyed and now you dont' thats called change in how you percieve things variable factor being experience !

Love
Kavi :)

Thoughts..

2011-01-08T08:00:00.000-08:00

Pain makes them writers...
Best emotional blackmailers are your nearest ones...
Life is a sexy bitch still its awesome.

Love
Kavi

Wonderring how this sinus can be cured in a natural way - 3 months and still in pain!

2010-11-17T20:06:00.000-08:00

Present State : Stuffed !
Love
Kavi

I am pack of bad also !

2010-10-28T23:15:00.000-07:00

Hatred calls them by name of bitch nd devil in hindi. GOD FORBID.
Mood : Full of hatred.
Hate
Kavita Bansal

When you can't keep on words and trust why hang on memories - sounds like charity at its best ! ~ Angelina Jolly

2010-10-24T10:59:00.000-07:00

Mood : Misbehaving may be !
With Love
Kavi

Chiming my own complaints .. and listed them all !

2010-08-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

There is no one to listen to my complaints, have i really grown to a mature age ?
Love
Kavi

According to YOU , baby i just can't act according 2 U ...

2010-04-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

I am a girl with my intentions
can't do anything as according to you .
I am a girl with a heart,
but i can't do anything as according to you .
I may be stupid, according to u
but boy i don' want to b stupid anemore !
Present State : taken aback !
Love
Kavi

I need walnuts nn almonds...%^&^*% ass brain.

2010-03-20T22:19:00.000-07:00

ouched by d lost memory... after months .. a nightmare a lost dream. @#$%$%
Present State : Irritated n goin out to get sm air.
With Love
Kavi

Resignation and Resigned.

2010-02-10T22:13:00.000-08:00

Dear Deepak,
I am writing to you today to officially tender my resignation from "Oracle Financial Services Software Ltd." effective Thursday, 11-Feb-2010.
I never thought I would ever leave such a great company as "Oracle Financial Services Software Ltd.", but because of personal reasons I had to take the decision.I cannot say enough wonderful things about "Oracle Financial Services Software Ltd.", about all the people I’ve encountered in my years of service with the company, and especially about you and all the others on the team. It's my hope that we will stay in touch as I begin this new chapter in my life.
Thank you very much for the opportunity to work here.
Sincerely,
Kavita Bansal
Employee Id : 18360

Evn' the law offers it.

2010-01-27T22:14:00.000-08:00

Champion of Liberty, Defender of Free Will - A totalitarian system of RULE! This is how it should be.
Present State : Calm
With Love
Kavi

Happy Birthday Dad

2010-01-25T09:16:00.000-08:00

http://www.123greetings.com/birthday/happy_birthday/birthday85.html

:) owned by evil spirits ...shooo

2010-01-09T00:48:00.000-08:00

I don't know what it is ?
But i feel a kind of attraction an unknown presence.
A presence ,that is bound to make me not what i am
Is it what, can u define and i am trying to find.
With Love
Kavita

Futuristic History!

2010-01-08T02:49:00.000-08:00

She won'!;t risk to fall for humors of dreams.
That idiocy of her, she cared and now she let all the chances to fall and slip.
She was a dreamer and now she is in real world.
An'd this real world is Promising, True and Substantial- :)

Wasn't easy, either but terrific ! Go get cococola , I am keen to party, relax and forget the old farts !Cheers year 2010

2010-01-07T10:52:00.000-08:00

Romantic puzzle to be solved !

2009-12-24T23:36:00.000-08:00

Fact is even stranger than fiction especially when it comes to mysteries of LOVE !
Present State: Puzzled
Love
Kavita

Big Cheers !

2009-12-22T02:40:00.000-08:00

io, io, io- merrily on High
and did u see i just fell off
who cares , one in, two in and a big CHEERS!
io, io, io - merrily on High!!!

With Love
Kavi
Wateva' may come to pass.Our love will triumph ovr bad. I will love you forever, my boy. --- anjoli fernandes'

Moment Captured - (Just a THANK YOU Note Published within OFSS - written by me to thank you the team )

2009-03-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

Today then, when is the right moment I shall indulge the pleasure of saying heartfelt Thank You to Deepak Jain, Sanjay Chavadi & Sudeep Pendharkar who posed as a binding force in true fashion when I was completely torn by "PART TIME EMPLOYEE PROCESS".

Even during these tough times, they were still able to create a potential in me & nurture that further by demonstrating the much needed trust. Deepak & Sudeep affirming “Everything would be fine just concentrate on how can you be your best” & Sanjay suggesting “Talk to the concerned, you will certainly get magic key out of this lock“ was always a boost to hoping good.

This day I feel 'Yes there I stand high with People who trust me'– Thanks!

Kavita Bansal

Worth of a Coin !!

2008-07-21T21:07:00.000-07:00

I have one coin,
I loose it I gain it
i cry... I try to find it everywhere
I am all Lost
i see here and there with scared vision
I wanna get that coin to feel happiness
I am not finding it
I am not finding it
I have one coin
I loose it I gain it
and I am not finding it !!!!!

25thMay,2008

LUV , Kavita

Another Poetry Competition-Result Awaited - Keeping my fingers crossed !!

2008-07-20T08:38:00.000-07:00

CoLoRfUL StRoKeS!!
Let's paint the sky
Let's paint the land
Let's paint the world
Let's paint our Wonderland - with ColoRfuL Strokes!!

Let's paint it splendid Golden Hues.
Ones that enrich & stimulate Laughter.
Let's try streaks of dazzling violet bluesColor that adds wonder.

Let's use Colors sudued or vibrantly hued.
Colors of joy & mystery.
Ones that amaze me.
Making me feel wooed.

I will use midnight blue-blacks!
The pure COLD WHITE!
Adding delight & surprise.
They are the colors that shimmer amidst the night skies like NIGHT LIGHTS.

I will try misty muted BLUE.
One that is silver sparkled.
A bit of chilly red or zesty orange.
I will color Aliveness with them all!

These Colors - I can paint the whole UNIVERSE.
Lets put the music on - and hum to the tunes
Lets Savour differet shades and strokes of LIFE!
The ColoRfUL Strokes.................

Anecdote Competition i won a consolation For - Experience with admin of i-flex

2008-07-20T08:27:00.000-07:00

Mission- Pigeon-Hole-Rack!
Now that I had finished my days work and had all the time in the world, I moved-off my seat and marched towards the ‘Pigeon-hole-rack’. With youthful exuberance I hit the box titled ‘JKL’ searching for post that would bear Kavita.
WHAT???Not even single-one in my name. Can’t happen - All tired but hopeful I started to dig out other boxes for that most needed “IMPORTANT DOCUMENT’

RUB A DUB DUB
KAVITA IS NOT UP WITH THE DAYS GRUB
DIG OUT
DIG OUT
YOU NEED TO PUT SOME MORE GRUB!!

And there – there it was lying, unnoticed. What if I would have misplaced it – such an important document. LET’S image being an ADMIN CONSULTANT. At that very moment I shooted out a POLITE-MAIL skirting the incidence and putting the limelight on the haphazard arrangement of posts in the ‘Pigeon-hole-Rack’.

Adkins Reply –

POSTS ARE ARRANGED IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER BUT BY SURNAME NOT NAME!!

Funny know - RUB A DUB DUB WHAT A GRUB IT WAS :)
And yes - ‘ADMIN IS REALLY THERE FOR US 24X7 TO MAKE OUR LIFE EASY’

Cheers!!!
Kavita Bansal

Excruciating Never-Ending Pain !!

2008-04-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

This molassy swamp of past thoughts --kinda give me a death-blow everyday . I could never be satisfied being counted as second best . But I am taking watever is coming my way without any protests . Not in my worst nightmares have I experienced such a pain .This feeling of a substitue has to be the greatest insult one human being can offer another. But see I am all Silent ....... seeing my dreams bleeding out !!!
State : Shatterred!!
Stength lay in a kind of stern Endurance.

Date/Boyfreind-Girlfriend Relation ----- not in my Dictionary

2008-03-29T07:09:00.000-07:00

I'm in the best hands in my life
Sad am I
NOOOO I am not
Happy am I ?
Yesssssssss I am
I am Happy

" ahmm,hmm,aahhh, surely,haha" -- words that jewel the throat of laconic conversationalists were jewelling my words. Strange !!! eewww .... wierd know :)

Turning white , bursting with wild joy and defiance at the same time , I stepped forward to face my FATE. I knew i had never had a good voice for "Dates and Fun" elements ,but i also knew that i could be a good companion full of "Love and Care" and that was what matterred.
So there I jumped with 100% me and soon I was singing my song, I was dancing my tunes ---and and there he stood Big and boisterous. He knew how to lavish me with humor, look me in the eye, slap shoulders, shake hands, crack a joke, share a confidence, poke fun at his own girth.

Date, Boyfriend, Girlfriend I seriously don’t know the meaning of these hefty words. Only thing I know is what I got ---- I got Happy Sweet Smarty Pants !!! And only thing I can wish is ---- my Smarty Pant STAYS--- STAYS there Forever !!!

Present State -- I am Blessed !!!
Time Span – march 2008
Event – Holi
WITH LOVE
KAVI

Wiping every Tear in every eye --- c'mon huh !!

2008-01-25T07:37:00.001-08:00

they say ......
Ecstacy Lies in finding SOLACE in their Happiness!!!
See!!! I had been so wilfully landing myself in these kind of self- destructive situations. It seems so unlike me ..yukkkk!!
Self Respect all shatterred ..huh...but i have managed to exist !!

Present State : Stupid
Still With Love
Kavita

Sweet knw !!!! simply Lovable :)

2008-01-25T07:20:00.000-08:00

Mommyz are really Cute
Horny though at times they may be
but see their Commitment .
Shez all out to buy a gift for Pappa
Itz his BIRTHDAY.
She is so Cute ,She may cover kms walking
She wud preapare food sweating out whole day
Lovable Surprises She is capable of coming out with anytime
Her heart is all swinging
She is all singing
May She be Blessed with more of such Happy Moments !!
very trueeeee Marriage is all about marriying ur age !!!!!
Happy Budday mah Lucky Pappa ... u r simply blessed with mah cute Mamma!!!
Present State : At Peace with mah thoughts !!!
With Love
Kavi

Are u Mad or Wat !!!!

2008-01-25T07:14:00.000-08:00

Open ur eyes
dun believe every word
but yes dun doubt every verse
motto is njoyyy ......... enjoy the game silently !!!!!
Present State: Intelligent ,Still so very Stupid !!
With Love
Kavi

BULLSHIT ..who wants to Loose!!

2008-01-24T07:04:00.000-08:00

Lets play with wat is called LIFE !!!
Lets play with what is called happiness!!
Lets play with wat is called sadness!!
Lets play with wat are called tears!!
Lets play with wat is called emotions!!
who wants to loose Lets play with what is called Heart !!

Present State: Trying to sound Bold & Strong
With Love
Kavi

Challenging situation.....

2008-01-05T02:19:00.000-08:00

Foxy eyes all around
witty games playing around
cute me enjoying every piece
doesn't know its all game !!
Time to hold and cuddle myself a bit !!

State : Scared
Kavi

I think i would be happy now .......

2007-11-29T23:50:00.000-08:00

I was successful in doing it ...again.....what i wanna prove..huh!!!
BULLSHIT ME .......... i want to dump myself somewhere after this .... what do i think of myself
why i can't stop with that useless stuff...... which doesn't mean anything to me but can mean so much to others....
hate being on trails of hurting people... and i am so gr888 i won't stop it either..

State : Ashamed of Myself !!!!!!

Silence

2007-11-12T07:16:00.000-08:00

Your words have died in the inarticulate sounds of panic.
Another part of your personal history that is defined by silence than understanding.
Seems likeyou are standing in a war memorial , it still continues- as a hangover- nothing substantial exists now, just a hangover. Yes but time has taught you to survive the sensation.
Something like you want to say something but you force yourself to put a lock on your lips so that the wave of air that makes the words to be thrown astray be kept inside.
Beware, if it happens for long u may start to stink from inside.

MORAL: SAY WHATEVER IS THERE
Take Sometime but Not that much that u start to stink :)

October 1st, 2007

2007-11-12T06:58:00.000-08:00

I had been sitting in a chair besides my bedroom window for the best part of four hours, staring out at the lively street, and had been wonderring what is holding me back against being part of the lively things that stand out. Why past always sounds to be a better option to be involved in. "Twenty Seven Years ", the movie deadly past still wins over my mind.

Lost I had fallen asleep, my face pressed against the cold window-pane, mouth turned in a sad curve, as if drained of all the colors of life. With a quiver I woke up, as if on my tracks to the road of past I was hit by some invisible wall. All in tears , i helped myself stand and started to clear my surroundings of the strewn things scaterring all around.

As if ready to set the disorder of life. And I know I definitely will be able to do that. Standing on the edge, which had a reasonable view of both ends POINTLESS to go back, I see the smiles inviting me. I feel good that I am being true to myself .

Change for Good
Work for Good
Forget the Blues
Smile to make people smile
WITH LOVE
KAVITA

Just like that ......

2007-10-31T03:08:00.000-07:00

Scared more than ever i had been
Confused more than ever i had been
Probably because past never had my whole life
This time it is a question of my whole life

Fakeness is the LOGO they wear inside of their goggles

2007-10-06T05:21:00.000-07:00

Cursing beneath their breaths
Sounding to be sweet
why can't anebody tell them they sound more genuine whn they are their heart
why can't anebody tell them they sound worst whn they are their brains

..............

I Am Gate - ideology from Osho

2007-10-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

Seriously Boss!!
They mince the words so very wisely u can't get the depth until and unless u just get into it !!
I sometimes wonder is philosophy a weapon to target peace or what.
Crazy me ,i think i am risking myself again but lets c what effect this Osho ideology has.

"I am Gate" my first takeon talks about I am not concept.
Concept which pitches high about that you are nobody but a character of some play.
So just Act.Emotions keep them at bay.Be Conscious and make yourself happen to every moment.

An insight to it is that you renunciate all that attaches you to something.
Grave isn't it ... Its really tough ....
okkk but yeah they say despose of all ur hopes, desires and expectations.Just act.

Over n all nice ideology but ...yeah yes yep ....probably not the rite moment!!

I still love adventure.
What wud the taste of food be without spices.
higgledy-piggledy of Life adds spice to Life !!! :-p

Apologies

2007-07-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

How can I doubt myself
Mistakes I make r my own
I learn to own who I m
Who else I can b

Who else is there to judge me if not myself
Others can only reflect mistakes that I’ve made
Not flaws in character
I am the possessor of those

I am not here to judge people around me
I’d cast the stones upon myself first
Not for sins that I have done
But not to hurt any who are in my company

For what is this life if not to touch another
To feel, a touch that is in love
Far too often we brush up against another’s edges
Bruised and cut by unintentional words and actions

I do not want this from myself
I offer down the humblest apologies
Life is already a myriad of unanswered questions
I do not want anyone’s scars to come from me

"Take A Chance On Me"--lovely lyrics

2007-06-22T14:42:00.000-07:00

"Take A Chance On Me"

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
That's all I ask of you honey
Take a chance on me

We can go dancing, we can go walking, as long as we're together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking, get to know you better
'Cos you know I've got
So much that I wanna do, when I dream I'm alone with you
It's magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know
That I can't let go

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain't no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
Come on, give me a break will you?
Take a chance on me
Oh you can take your time baby, I'm in no hurry, know I'm gonna get you
You don't wanna hurt me, baby don't worry, I ain't gonna let you
Let me tell you now
My love is strong enough to last when things are rough
It's magic
You say that I waste my time but I can't get you off my mind
No I can't let go
'Cos I love you so

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down
If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can't you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
Take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can't you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
Take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa ba-ba
Honey I'm still free
Take a chance on me

Cherishable moment

2007-06-11T12:14:00.000-07:00

Friends why they are so much of fun to be with.
Friends why they are so much comfortable to be with.
Friends why can't they alwayz be around ?????

tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

2007-06-05T09:53:00.000-07:00

just wanna b home !!!!!

Sing and Boogie BLUE ;-)

2007-06-01T09:30:00.000-07:00

Chilling first rain draws me crazy, yes these little things draw me crazy!!
I rock and roll, forget my blues sing aloud with a partying mood.
June first monsoon has arrived and nothing can stop me !!
I am ma movement by myself
hey u listen i dun need u
i m ma good by myself
ayee u all stay away
i m ma boss ,i m ma pal
hey who needs u !!
yeah d cake has got the sweet frosting
aye better i will njoy it wid those aho are around me
ya ya ya
wah wah wah itz sho lovely
i mah need lorretta scott if i gonna b queen
fabulous i m ma movement by myself
i need nobody
first things first i does what i do
hey i dun wanna improve
yeah yeah yeah
the caked up cut
the cleaned up ice
fabulous fabulous is this whole drive !!!!!

A canonball to gut !!!

2007-05-19T09:05:00.000-07:00

At loss of words, sitting in dumbfounded shock I am trying to make my mind register that there is nothing I could do to stop "the hand of fate".
I have weighed this heavily,but i think i must say what is there in my heart.
There is just no substitute for the truth.Straight from heart without any ICING

Am alone at crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done
You don't know what I'm feeling
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start
You don't know not what I am feeling
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I got to find my own - my own

JUMBLE - Who , Why, What for - you?

2007-05-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

Who-you?
I puzzled all the day through some rather hazy meanings but conclusively I find myself to be nowhere .
Why-you?
My conscious says me to Hold Off.
What for -you?
Lifelong Love is the answer.

I may not be saying exactly what I mean but i demand that u cut the bull, telling it like it is from your perspective.

Love, Crush or an Idol??????

2007-05-14T11:27:00.000-07:00

He has started the travel

He has started winning

He is unstoppable

He competes all my doubts

His gaze is enough an eat

He is pry to my life

He is question to me'

Love, Crush or an Idol??????

Stowaway to ur feelings..whom do u want to BLUFF!!

2007-04-30T04:47:00.000-07:00

O, what a tangled web we weave, When first we practise to be a Stowaway !!Hiding and without paying for it we want to reach there protected ..how mean.

still to be completed .........

Parcel of feelings

2007-04-28T07:23:00.001-07:00

Beyond the splash of lights, the night still is so absorbing
Beyond the concrete truth, this one dream is so convincing I want to be lost in this dream foever!!
Beyond the wired fences,the beauty of nature still sprawls
Beyond the annoying pieces of words,the innocency still exists I want to be lost in the mistery created forever!!

Talk it out Man!!

2007-04-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

Girlfrend; Sir, can we talk?
Boyfrend; um, sure .wat's the matter
Girlfrend; are u seeing someone else?
Boyfrend; wat? ofcourse not! why wud u ask me that?
Girlfrend; well u have been a bit distant these past couple weeks.
Boyfrend; i hv had a lot on my mind lately with work
Girlfrend; well, why didn't u talked to me about it?
Boyfrend; i just didn't want to bother u with my work problems
Girlfrend; we shudn't keep our feelings frm each other,san?
Boyfrend; u r right. but u dun need to worry about me finding another girlfrend.ok?

Motto: u shudn't keep ur feelings from eachother

LIFE OF MY OWN

2007-04-28T06:30:00.000-07:00

"A LIFE OF MY OWN"--I hv been smoking it now nearly seven years -ever since after i stepped out of home.Nobody did cared whn i started and now plainly itz there ..I njoy it ,infact i m addicted to it !!
Ahmm ..Might say WAS addicted to it.

The happenings surely made me learn the "how to fit in you " - ART.
They say " you’ve got to put your blood, as well as your sweat , your tears and ur smiles into making a thing what it ought to be".
Yupz they did it very well ,they made me. This is the divine magic of Love and Care shown to u."

A LIFE OF MY OWN" do i seriously want it ??I’ve come to think it and finally have concluded ....it won't be really great .Thanks buddies for d comfy zone u all have created for me...I love being into this cozy couch!!